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I'm amazed at how content at life I am right now. It makes no sense. I've been tired thanks to school and keysmashing at useless things that matter me to. I wonder if this is normal. Nah, being content is normal.
It's just that just last week I wanted to run away from home . I had everything set up in my head. Everything. What to bring, where I would leave my things, where would I go as to not bother the keeper of my belongings too much, and how I would cope with money, shelter, and school all at the time same.
I thought about all this, but I knew there was no way I was going to do it. I had more sense than that really, but I still went ahead to plan and even to pack things that were important to me in an area just because. I think in a way I am just protecting those things as I thought of this.
I don't know why I did all this even though I knew I wasn't going to do it. It's not rational but the idea seems somewhat...lovely.
But ahh I'm over that thought and well I know no matter how much I think about it I am not going to. It's just a thought and I'm more rational than that. But somehow, in a week everything became so much better.
I really am happy. It's just hard for me to stay that way sometimes lately, mood swings I think. But I love everything right now and how it is. And I love everyone. Even if I didn't love everything right now I'd still love you guys.
Guys guys, I love you all. So much♥
It's just that just last week I wanted to run away from home . I had everything set up in my head. Everything. What to bring, where I would leave my things, where would I go as to not bother the keeper of my belongings too much, and how I would cope with money, shelter, and school all at the time same.
I thought about all this, but I knew there was no way I was going to do it. I had more sense than that really, but I still went ahead to plan and even to pack things that were important to me in an area just because. I think in a way I am just protecting those things as I thought of this.
I don't know why I did all this even though I knew I wasn't going to do it. It's not rational but the idea seems somewhat...lovely.
But ahh I'm over that thought and well I know no matter how much I think about it I am not going to. It's just a thought and I'm more rational than that. But somehow, in a week everything became so much better.
I really am happy. It's just hard for me to stay that way sometimes lately, mood swings I think. But I love everything right now and how it is. And I love everyone. Even if I didn't love everything right now I'd still love you guys.
Guys guys, I love you all. So much♥
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Date: 2010-10-31 11:18 am (UTC)From:no subject
Date: 2010-10-31 09:40 pm (UTC)From:I love you too, Annabelle <333
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Date: 2010-11-01 07:27 pm (UTC)From:I'm glad that things are this way, I hope this lasts for a long time sweetie. ♥
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Date: 2010-11-02 03:00 am (UTC)From:I love you too, darling. Soooo much. You have no idea how good it felt to see this post and know that my Annabelle's being doing better, and I hope that your happiness lasts. ♥♥♥
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Date: 2010-11-04 02:19 am (UTC)From:*hugs* ILY ♥