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I think I'm mad.

I spent the day joking about suicide. And no, I know perfectly well I won't do anything stupid. I'm just so stressed out by tomorrows oral commentary. How am I suppose to explain a poem / passage on Hamlet / passage on Sense and Sensibility for 12 minutes?

It's not only part of the IB program, no I wouldn't be as nervous then... but it's part of my grade in English.

Plus I have been having trouble in Biology lately. WHY DO I EVEN HAVE TO TAKE AN HL CLASS OF BIO =___=; Why split it? WHY? /sob.

My friends believe I'll pull through because...lol I always do but...

This has been the root of my horrible feelings the past week. I'm having trouble being happy right now.

Yeah. I'm done. I have poems analysis. I have my brain set on a poem. We get it randomly but, no I'M GETTING A POEM BECAUSE MY BRAIN SENDS MESSAGES TO THE WORLD TO MAKE IT HAPPEN AND MY BRAIN SAYS I'M GETTING A POEM.

orz. idkay man. I used to be so happy before junior year. Now I don't even give a damn about what I wear to school.....Just waiting to graduate.

I SWEAR I'LL BE AROUND MORE. I've just either been busy (last week) or tag happy (this week) so I simply forget to come here. I DO READ EVERYONE'S POST THOUGH ;A;. If that means anything to you guys.

/hits friends only and ignores all comm posts now. I am so horrible.

School has actually been good. I'm always talking in my French II class though and I think my teacher is ON TO ME. FFFF. I do my work but it's just that...HE TALKS SO MUCH. SHUT UP AND LET ME TALK  WORK ON MY CLASS WORK PLZ. lolol I'm so mean xD; Nah, I really like him. He just tends to go on and go about directions when he should just relax already, that's all. We're not stupid. We get it the first time.

I think I'm being a spazz....it took me more than an hour to continue with this post. Anywaysss~

Meme time (since i have nothing better to do):

Day One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.
Day Two: Nine things about yourself.
Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart.
Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.
Day Five: Six things you wish you'd never done.
Day Six: Five people who mean a lot.
Day Seven: Four turn offs.
Day Eight: Three turn ons.
Day Nine: Two smileys that describe your life right now.
Day Ten: One confession.

( some good-some bad )

Fff well half RL and half online. It's not a bad balance B).

❀So I realized I haven't been posting anything decent for a while so I will fix that now. Since you know, doing like 20 dares in 2 days was very decent and full of sense for everyone to read right? No, of course not. Although I admit I enjoyed it thoroughly.
However I enjoyed reading and saving and screen capping other posts more. /evil smirking forever bby.

❀/ahem Either way...as some of you noticed. I'M NEVER HERE TO HAVE A LEGIT CONVERSATION WITH YOU GUYS. Sorry ;A;.

❀I've been sleeping lots lately, but not really. I keep going to bed at 10 or something just because I know I'd have to wake up around 2 to do hw. I have a biology test this week with lots of hw due on the day of the test. It was horrid but the test turned out to be pretty okay despite the fact I felt like I didn't study at all. I finished my hw at least ;;.

❀Oh and I had a choir concert yesterday. And rehearsal Monday so obviously my time and energy was cut short thanks to that. Stupid concert. I can at least say our group did well. So yay?

❀BUT!  minimum day tomorrow and Friday! I'll be home before 12~ B) Life is good again.

❀Still slowly cracking at them Durarara!! novels. So sad. I still have to wait for my hard copies to come in the mail. They were mailed on the 14th...and she told me a week to 2. LET IT BE ONLY A WEEK. COME TOMORROW. I am so excite I don't wanna wait any longer for them ;A;.

❀Presentation for english tomorrow. So not excite for that.

❀Bought my Kida wig a few days ago. /waits patiently for it to come in the mail. This will take a while though. I know it. /sob.

❀OH. I HIT MY HEAD ON THE STEPS OF MY CHOIR ROOM TODAY /sob. I can't tell if I deserved it or not though. Maybe this is karma for scaring tears out of my friend and teasing her for it after showing High school of the Dead to my anime club today. I never even watched it myself, I just remembered it was good and made my friend bring it to show. Heey, I liked it. I just had no idea that there were so many panty shots in it. BUUUT the teacher/supervior said he liked the show too sooo...NO COMPLAINTS. FFFF.
But yeah. It was so loud when I hit my head I don't even. My friend feels so guilty over it. But yeah I just kinda laid there like 6_9 saying "I am not okay. You gave me a headache. Look what you did". And then like 5 people were like "Do not fall asleep OR YOU'LL DIE." 
Thank you lots, you guys. :<.

❀/goes to finish hw now.

☆I'm kinda worn out. Lalala nothing new there. I have missed my biology class the 2nd time in a row and it bothers me. My ride is always late and she doesn't seem to understand that school is important no matter how much you don't like it. I mean she's the one with Calculus in the morning; she should be more on edge than me. Plus when I AM there we learn about things I already know and it weird me out....=A= I just feel like I'm missing all the important lessons or something ahhh.

☆I found them. CHINESE DURARARA NOVELS on the Taiwan yahoo auction site HNNNNGGHHH. Brand new and still wrapped in that plastic thing. I'm buying them like, now! Well I don't know I have to wait because I found a shopping service and they're giving me my quote. It shouldn't be over $50 though so o/!! I just have to find 6, 7, and 8.../sob. But eh, it's okay I have them all online. I just like hard copies<33;;

☆My psychology test went okay! Thank you to all the sweethearts that wished me luck~ My grade went up since the first test so sounds good to me~ We're just chilling and watching A Beautiful Mind this week.

☆I've been having a wave of depressing feelings lately. They kinda just come and go. Probably not a big deal. I shouldn't think too much of it.

☆Oh and speaking of frequent things (lolol major topic change) there has been this ringing in my ear lately. I mean I know it happens once in a while but it's been REALLY FREQUENT lately. I should find out if that means anything..;;

☆........Our weather is bipolar. It's so damn cold now. Wasn't it just lkadsfj hot a few days ago?